FEAR

Fear, I have no time for you
for if I let you come
my world just might come undone
I just might find I can't go on
I may just be like those who came before me
I may have to face
I am not great or strong
not right but always wrong
not smart with a lot of potential
I may find I'm not so different.

Fear, if I give you even one second
you may just take over
then I will have to face the lonesome walk
my life once was and could be again
face the possibility that I
after climbing so high
have even farther to fall
face that my ladder is missing rungs
face that even after everything I will still be nothing
I may find I'm not so different.

Fear, you are no friend
to you I will not bend
you can not make me think about my fear that he will see
see I'm crazy
with an irrational fear that he will leave
or perhaps that he will stay
in spite of who I might be
that his love is fleeting
like the others before him
I just may find I'm not so different.

Fear, if given the chance
you will act just like a disease
taking control
of my body
of my mind
debilitating
clipping my wings
making it impossible to continue on
taking my smile
I just may find I'm not so different.

Fear, you won't let me mend
I'll forever be left
with hidden tears
each one filled with you
no kind words to spare
my time will stand still
while everyone else goes forward
leaving me behind
cold and alone
REALIZING I'M NOT DIFFERENT!