Done with the disillusion

I came to a tough realization today, I am only connected to the Haydens by DNA and name. I am done being disillusioned that one day they will acknowledge me or that one day they will act like a family. A family as defined by Websters is a group of people sharing common ancestry and well that is what we are. I, for 38 years now have defined family as a group of people with common ancestry who share the joys and disappointments of life, and prove dependable in times of need as well as times of abundance. I am done with the disillusionment.
I spent so much of my life being a statistic that when I began to rise above those stifling realities of my upbringing I thought that just maybe one of the members of this group with similar DNA would acknowledge my accomplishment. I am not asking for the fancy, expensive gifts that most college grads get, just the simple acknowledgment by sharing the moment, being in the audience and cheering for me...it really doesn't feel like too much to ask, but I guess it is!
So from this day forward the best way for me to guard against these repeated disappointments is to stop telling these people anything. I will no longer have communications with them, it's really the only way to make it through the rest of my life without the consistent disappointment.
I have to let my readers, if there are any, know that I do not hold a grudge or blame these people for the way it is, it is what it is, and that is all it can ever be, or has ever been. They are not to be blamed but empathized with because they too are missing out on having the connection I desire to have with them.
The most important thing for me to remember right now is that I did this without their help and to be honest I didn't do it for their benefit so really I don't need them there that day! And even without them it will still be one of the greatest days of my life that could not and would not be improved upon with their presence.

Again I thank you for stopping by to read The Writings Of A Girl