Realization

Life hands us many disappointments, it is how we deal with those disappointments that speaks volumes about our character.
This week life piled on the disappointments for me and I have to be honest, I DID NOT HANDLE THEM WELL!!! It is through these disappointments that we learn life's lessons and my lesson this week is that I need to work on myself. I need to work on my outlook and become more positive, I need to work on my jealousy issues and realize that not all men cheat or are even capable of cheating, I need to work on my faith that God is always in control and stop trying to control everything, I need to work on my insecurities and realize that I am beautiful in mind, body and spirit, I have goals and ambitions and I am working my ass off to achieve them, and most of all I can be loved for all my attributes and faults, not only can be but should be. I have pushed many people, especially those that I never wanted to, out of my life because I haven't felt worthy. To those people I want to say that I AM TRULY SORRY!!! Please know that I am taking responsibility for pushing you away and making it difficult for you to love me!